Story 18 ✐ video〚au!discedo〛

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[The view is dark and it's hard to make out Chihiro's shape, but from the unsteady view it's obvious that she's shaking. From what you can see of her face, she looks... well, she looks terrified.]

I-If... if you were going to, um, k-kill yourself. What do you think the... best method would be?

[Further away you can hear someone call, "Sis, it's time for dinner!" It startles her, but once that passes her expression changes to... something almost angry.]

After all, it's not like I can stay here, right?

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[asideglance.livejournal.com]

...Chihiro-san.

[he doesn't even care if he gets tracked down anymore, man]

[tag-urdead.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure.

Are you afraid of dying?

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[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Japan-san, right? [And similarly, she is done trying to not sound bitter.]

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Yes.

[tag-urdead.livejournal.com]

I don't know if I am. But I have no desire to remain here.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

... I don't know if I want to. I'm not sure anymore.

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[asideglance.livejournal.com]

Correct. Such a morbid topic... I have answers, but I am hesitant to share them.

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[allephoria.livejournal.com]

... does it really matter anymore?

[tag-urdead.livejournal.com]

Do you like it here?

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[asideglance.livejournal.com]

What matters is the path to that place we were before. I am attempting to think of the least harmful way for Chihiro-san.

[aka he is wondering if there's a good suicide way for her or if he should help her out WOW HORRIBLE]

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I do. But I know I can't stay here. It would be impossible.

[tag-urdead.livejournal.com]

It's a false life. I prefer my real past.

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[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I can't even remember it anymore. It's hard to care when it's like you never did in the first place.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

[Her real past...]

I don't know what mine is anymore.

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[asideglance.livejournal.com]

I remember. I understand it is difficult for Chihiro-san, but this place is not meant for us.

[tag-urdead.livejournal.com]

[.....]

You don't?

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[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I know that... I know that! [her voice is actually starting to rise I think this is a first] Even if I wanted to stay here I couldn't because I don't know anything! The me of here never lost her memories like I did. Why is her life so wonderful when mine isn't?

It... it's not fair!

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Parts of it, but... not everything.

[tag-urdead.livejournal.com]

Me neither.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

... really?

[tag-urdead.livejournal.com]

Yes.

[pause.]

I keep records of the things I do and see in order to keep track of my past.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I believe I kept a diary at home to record things I did that day... ah, and here I've been using this to do the same.

[tag-urdead.livejournal.com]

My diary is not here. This city has a fake diary instead.

What do your recordings look like?

[carrythesin.livejournal.com]

You don't have to taint your hands...

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

At here or at the real Discedo?