Story 18 ✐ video〚au!discedo〛

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[The view is dark and it's hard to make out Chihiro's shape, but from the unsteady view it's obvious that she's shaking. From what you can see of her face, she looks... well, she looks terrified.]

I-If... if you were going to, um, k-kill yourself. What do you think the... best method would be?

[Further away you can hear someone call, "Sis, it's time for dinner!" It startles her, but once that passes her expression changes to... something almost angry.]

After all, it's not like I can stay here, right?

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[asideglance.livejournal.com]

...Chihiro-san.

[he doesn't even care if he gets tracked down anymore, man]

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[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Japan-san, right? [And similarly, she is done trying to not sound bitter.]

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[asideglance.livejournal.com]

Correct. Such a morbid topic... I have answers, but I am hesitant to share them.

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[allephoria.livejournal.com]

... does it really matter anymore?

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[asideglance.livejournal.com]

What matters is the path to that place we were before. I am attempting to think of the least harmful way for Chihiro-san.

[aka he is wondering if there's a good suicide way for her or if he should help her out WOW HORRIBLE]

[tag-urdead.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure.

Are you afraid of dying?

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Yes.

[tag-urdead.livejournal.com]

I don't know if I am. But I have no desire to remain here.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

... I don't know if I want to. I'm not sure anymore.

[carrythesin.livejournal.com]

You don't have to taint your hands...

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I don't want to... burden anyone with this though.

[carrythesin.livejournal.com]

It's not a burden if you ask.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't want to force someone to have to kill just for my sake.

[fierybluebird]

Would you prefer quick and painless?

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

[She nods.] I-I think that would be best.

[fierybluebird]

Getting someone to do it for you via beheading.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

[/SCREAMING INSIDE...]

I-I-Is something like that really painless?

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[isolatedpiece.livejournal.com]

... I think it depends on who you'd ask.

[ LA LA LA CASUALLY TALKING ABOUT SUICIDE.. ]

Although I guess most people prefer painless.

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[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Mm, I don't think I'd want it to... hurt.

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[isolatedpiece.livejournal.com]

Finding the things needed for that wouldn't be easy in this place.. Although there are a few ways that are sort of painless but still fairly messy, I guess.

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[allephoria.livejournal.com]

L-Like what?

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[dustedsunlight.livejournal.com]

Are... are you really going to do it?

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[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I don't think I have a choice. I... we're all supposed to leave.

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[dustedsunlight.livejournal.com]

I know, but... i-it's complicated. I mean, I don't think I could kill myself. It's too scary an idea.

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[allephoria.livejournal.com]

It is, but... I don't want to force anyone to have to do this for me. I don't want to burden them with it.