Story 18 ✐ video〚au!discedo〛

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[The view is dark and it's hard to make out Chihiro's shape, but from the unsteady view it's obvious that she's shaking. From what you can see of her face, she looks... well, she looks terrified.]

I-If... if you were going to, um, k-kill yourself. What do you think the... best method would be?

[Further away you can hear someone call, "Sis, it's time for dinner!" It startles her, but once that passes her expression changes to... something almost angry.]

After all, it's not like I can stay here, right?

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[allephoria.livejournal.com]

[She nods.] I-I think that would be best.

[fierybluebird]

Getting someone to do it for you via beheading.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

[/SCREAMING INSIDE...]

I-I-Is something like that really painless?

[fierybluebird]

[Worst. role model. EVER.]

Yes.

[He's lying, he has no idea because in his normal body, he can barely die, barely feel pain. He just assumes so.]

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

... I see. [Maybe. Sorta. IDEK.] That wouldn't be suicide though, so I'm not sure.

[fierybluebird]

It is if you ask for it.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I wouldn't want to burden someone with that though.

[fierybluebird]

I'm sure you could find a volunteer.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Maybe, but...

[fierybluebird]

Everyone has to go sometime, eh.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I-I suppose that's one way of looking at it.

[fierybluebird]

It's not even all that permanent.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

... is there any way to know that for sure though?

[fierybluebird]

The Discedo we're used to brings people back from the dead. I see no reason why that wouldn't happen now.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I suppose that's a good point.

[fierybluebird]

Of course, I have less to lose here than others, so I can see why it might be harder.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Did you not like it here?

[fierybluebird]

My real family isn't here and I don't need another one. Working a steady job with an office and regular hours isn't me. I'm a pirate, I'm comfortable with that, I don't want anything else.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Oh, I see now. [She nods to herself.] Yes, that makes sense then.

[fierybluebird]

How about you?

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I... I like it here. I know they're not my real family, but... I like it.

[fierybluebird]

My little brother's the same way, but would you really want to get stuck in an unending dream just because it's easier?

Bad things happen in real life, but without them you wouldn't get the best things, all the good stuff too.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I'm tired of the bad things. I've never been strong enough to face them.

Ah, I see now. Surprisingly, I'm a coward.

[fierybluebird]

Even the brave get tired of bad things.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

[She shakes her head.] No, I've never been brave.