Story 18 ✐ video〚au!discedo〛

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[The view is dark and it's hard to make out Chihiro's shape, but from the unsteady view it's obvious that she's shaking. From what you can see of her face, she looks... well, she looks terrified.]

I-If... if you were going to, um, k-kill yourself. What do you think the... best method would be?

[Further away you can hear someone call, "Sis, it's time for dinner!" It startles her, but once that passes her expression changes to... something almost angry.]

After all, it's not like I can stay here, right?

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[fierybluebird]

Of course, I have less to lose here than others, so I can see why it might be harder.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Did you not like it here?

[fierybluebird]

My real family isn't here and I don't need another one. Working a steady job with an office and regular hours isn't me. I'm a pirate, I'm comfortable with that, I don't want anything else.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Oh, I see now. [She nods to herself.] Yes, that makes sense then.

[fierybluebird]

How about you?

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I... I like it here. I know they're not my real family, but... I like it.

[fierybluebird]

My little brother's the same way, but would you really want to get stuck in an unending dream just because it's easier?

Bad things happen in real life, but without them you wouldn't get the best things, all the good stuff too.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I'm tired of the bad things. I've never been strong enough to face them.

Ah, I see now. Surprisingly, I'm a coward.

[fierybluebird]

Even the brave get tired of bad things.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

[She shakes her head.] No, I've never been brave.

[fierybluebird]

You'll just have to ask someone to do it for you then, eh.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

... I don't know. I don't know.

[fierybluebird]

A shot to the back of the head is also pretty quick.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

I-I'll keep that in mind.

[fierybluebird]

You know all those things you've been scared of trying?

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

[She nods, slowly.]

[fierybluebird]

Now's the best time to try one risk free.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Ah, I suppose that's true. What I do here won't matter since I'm going back, right?

[fierybluebird]

Exactly. You'll just get the experience of it, no regrets.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Hehe, right. I'll try to keep that in mind.

[fierybluebird]

Could be fun, eh.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

Ah, maybe. [She is not that sure however.]

[fierybluebird]

You won't know until you try.

[allephoria.livejournal.com]

You certainly make a compelling argument.

[fierybluebird]

Got any other standpoints? I'll try to refute those too if it'll make you feel better.